Tuesday, May 20, 2014

I'm an unapologetically loud laugher.

Recently, I went to Sam’s Club.  I only go to one of these kinds of wholesale establishments maybe once every two or three years.  Larry and Sue (my archery mom and dad) and our friend Meg (my archery older sister) went because Meg needed dog stuff, Sue needed socks, I needed a gigantic package of gum, and – the priority – Larry needed their soft-serve ice cream. 

Okay, if you want to have an uneventful, quick-in-and-out experience at one of these places, do not take me.  I’ll spare you the details/surprise of what that experience looks like.

Long story short, we are sitting at the table there, all of us eating our soft serve, and cracking up over one thing or another.  We are always laughing, we are very funny people.  I don’t know if you knew that – I’m very funny.  Sometimes I have to tell people.

So I spill something, naturally, and Larry and Sue go to throw away the garbage, and Meg goes to get napkins, and this lady comes up to me and says, 

“You know, I’m been observing you all sitting here for a while my husband has been in the store.  It’s just so nice to see people laughing.  You guys have been laughing and laughing, and it has been so refreshing and nice to see.  No one laughs these days anymore.  You just don’t see people laughing.  I just wanted to thank you, I’ve been really blessed by just watching you.”


I loved her telling me that, and I loved that she could only do so once it was just me – she had to wait for everyone else to step away.  I told everyone what she said when they returned. 

This past weekend, my brother (my dad’s son) called me, and said that he was going to be in town, in case I could do dinner Saturday or Sunday.  That West-Coast side of my family and I talk now and then, but honestly, I haven’t talked to that brother in years.  It’s just hard for me, due to things I won’t bore you with.  But Brother and my New Jersey cousin, Nancy, were coming to D.C. for the weekend, so I went out to dinner with them on Sunday.

Man, we were laughing our heads off.  It’s tough to catch folks up on the last couple years of your life over an hour-or-so-long meal, but I did the best I could, and we were all laughing so much.  Nancy is so freakin hilarious.  She is classic New Jesery hilarity.  Everything is automatically hilarious due to her New Jersey accent.

We talked about my travels, and Brother wanted to know how exactly do I just march into an unknown place and make friends?  I told him to just be friendly to the right people, you gotta feel the vibe.   “Like our waitress.  See, if I didn’t live here, I would ask her what she is doing with the rest of her day after work, and if she would like to invite us to do those things with her.”  He seemed fascinated.  Eh.

After dinner, Brother told me that it was such a blessing to be around me, like he felt like he had just received a shot of positive energy.  He said it was very therapeutic to be around me.  I thought that was a nice thing to say.
  
Saturday, I went to Central Park with my friend Karen, and we were taking the subway down to lower Manhattan, when another train was just fixin to close its doors, and I saw that it was headed to Coney Island.  I threw Karen on the subway and told her that our plans changed to Coney Island.  It ended up being a very fun day.

I told Brother that sometimes, you just have to hop the available train to Coney Island, and figure the rest out later.

This is Karen drawing this violin player’s picture in Central Park.  It’s amazing to watch Karen work.




Look at this lady's face/reaction





Thursday, May 15, 2014

Eyelashes and Human Interactions

Last night I had an itch in my eye, and when I went to wipe my eye, I pulled something like five eyelashes out.  I feel like that’s not a good sign.  I feel like there's a saying about that.
 



Room Etiquette and Mobile Device Tethers


One of my biggest pet peeves (shut UP, I do not have that many) is people who do not have proper entering-the-room etiquette. 

When you enter the room, you are the one who greets people.  

The enter-er does the greeting.

You know how I know this is correct?  Because the person who is standing in front of the coffee machine, copy machine, etc., may not know that you have snuck into the room, and you will scare the crap out of them if you just sneak up behind them without announcing yourself.  It’s not the room occupy-ers duty to say “good morning” to you first.

I am REALLY big on this rule, because I work in a large office environment.  If I walk into the kitchen and there are folks in there, I pass along a “Hello!” or “Good morning!”  I don’t act like nothing is happening.  I expect interaction, however brief and/or painful it might be. 

When I turn around, and someone has entered the room, and they are just pretending I am not there, it boils my blood. 

The reason that I care is because I know this is going to be a growing trend as generations younger than mine are socially interactively inept, due to their umbilical cord to their electronic devices.  Folks can’t even ride 2 minutes in an elevator with other humans without using their cell phone crutch.  

OH NO, THIS MIGHT REQUIRE HUMAN INTERACTION, WHERE IS MY CELL PHONE, I CAN’T RISK HAVING TO SAY WORDS OR LISTEN TO THEM!!!  I MUST LOOK BUSY! DON'T TALK TO ME, I'M OBVIOUSLY BUSY ON MY PHONE!


Even my peers do this.  It drives me bananas.

But hey... seriously... please try to do better.  You could make someone's whole day by engaging them in actual human face-to-face interaction.  Really.  You just never know.

And now, some photos of things that have been in my life recently. 








Road Trip.




Oh, and here.  This is for you, as a refresher.


Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Je ne comprends pas.



The other day I went to lunch with a colleague.  He’s very heads-down at work.  I asked him what he does, what he’s into, what he does on weekends.  I don’t remember his reply, I just remember not being satisfied by his answer.


We got to talking about my weekend – Kate and I went on one of our famous road trips to where ever, exploring the beautiful land of America.  He did not comprehend.  

He does not comprehend nature or hiking.  He actually said, “I don’t go hiking, I don’t get the big deal.”  

My mind was blown.

I can't work with that.  I need people who long for it, people who know.


I tried to explain to him nature.  I tried to explain mountain air and starfish and birds chirping and sun beams through trees.  I tried to explain Washington State. I tried to explain Gettysburg.  I tried to have him see the beauty in the America around him.

How can you ignore this??? 














I even forced him to Facebook friend request me, and then proceded to force him to look through those (and MORE) photos.  I WANTED HIM TO KNOW THE THINGS I HAVE SEEN.  


SURELY, THEN HE WOULD UNDERSTAND!!!!!






He wasn’t buying it.  “I mean, I have hiked.  I hiked up Mt. Rainier.  But I mean, it wasn’t a big deal.” 

I have reached the end of the road with that man.  I do not see how we can proceed in friendship. 



Who will you tuck into your vest and ride for?

 Tom and Aaron
 

My little area at work is always changing, as different folks are swapped in and out of the offices and cubes around me.  People come and they go, sometimes I learn their names, and, almost always, I have no idea what they do here.  Although, to be fair, I don’t know what most people do here, myself included.


This guy Tom sits behind me, he’s a jolly fellow, and one of 3 Toms with whom I directly work – Tom who works beside me, Tom who works behind me, and Tom who is one of my managers.  Anyway, Tom is a sweet guy, keeps up with the Osprey and tells me of any and all updates, and doesn’t really open up or say hello to anyone except me.  He and I have brief but friendly exchanges, complete with actual eye contact.  It’s lovely.

There’s this other guy, Aaron, who sits behind us once a week or so.   Also a really, really nice guy.

Aaron just comes over just a little while ago and starts telling Tom about how his brother died very suddenly last week.  Aaron is a young guy, maybe late 30’s.  I don’t know what they were talking about before – I was in my own zone.  But Aaron’s voice got very raw, and I could feel all of the air being sucked out of the room.  He had nothing to hide, he was raw, his heart was on the floor, and he was unapologetically sentimental. 

What I lack is sympathy.  I do not have that very often. 
“Both empathy and sympathy are feelings concerning other people. Sympathy is literally 'feeling with' - compassion for or commiseration with another person. Empathy, by contrast, is literally 'feeling into' - the ability to project one's personality into another person and more fully understand that person.”

I have extraordinary amount of empathy.

So Aaron is pouring his heart out to Tom, about how he loved his brother, how he was only a year younger than himself.  Aaron is pouring, saying all of the things you would imagine one would say.  The saddest, saddest, heart breaking things.

 Then Aaron starts to ask Tom how his wife is doing, and Tom starts telling him that she is doing really well, she only has three more chemo treatments to go, that the doctors raised her dosage.  [[ I had no idea about any of this.]]  How she is still working, how she is always busy, how she can never just sit down and read a novel, and what is evident in Tom’s voice is how much he adores his wife.

This made me realize three things.
  1. You never really know a person, do you?  You can sit next to someone day in and day out, and never really know what is happening in their precious, short, wonderful life.
  2. I’m glad for my heart of steel; I am not prepared to handle the risk of loss.  People are dying; people are sick and dying, and people love them, and life is too short and it isn’t really fair at all.
  3. Which also makes me glad for my diplomatic family situation.  Touch and go, optional at times, sample-serving sized, take it or leave it; safe.  This is what we have made it, this is how we have allowed it to be. 


Reality check:  Which of your relationships are sample-serving-sized – I mean, really think about it.  Maybe no one.  Maybe you have everyone in your life just as you want it.  Just ensure – yes, please ensure, that you are very, very cognizant of ensuring that you are treating even mour post precious, taken-for-granted relationships in a non-sample-serving-portion.   What if they died suddenly, no warning. 

So finally, Aaron is telling Tom about the biking race that he has chosen to participate in this weekend, which is a 140 mile bike ride from Ocean City to Baltimore to raise money for HIV and cancer patients. 

Aaron is saying how he is really looking forward to it, it means the world to him right now.

Aaron says that he is going to write Tom’s wife’s name on a piece of paper and put it in his riding vest, so that he can ride for her.   Tom says he really, really appreciates that.  Aaron says he’s proud to do it.

Aaron says he is also going to be riding in memory of his brother.

It makes me sad, and raw, and connected to him.

Aaron is going to be a new man henceforth, I can tell.  Aaron has seen some truth recently.  


And now, things and conversations of my life from the past while:



This fetus means a lot to me:




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From: Christine
Sent: Tuesday, May 06, 2014 2:18 PM
To: Miglin, Veronica
Subject: RE: Pizza Phriday

Hi Cuz!!!

                I did send this to Jim to confirm on some dates, but I do know that  5/17 does not work for us.   

                Looking forward to seeing you and Kate!!!   Is this the first meeting of the Seattle Cry Fest???


From: Miglin, Veronica
To: Christine, Katelyn
Subject: RE: Pizza Phriday

Yes.  It is the first official meeting of the Pacific NorthwesTears.  See what I did there. 

Okay, we can look to June.  Waiting to hear back from Kate on some dates, too. 

J

~ Stella


From: Katelyn Sullivan
To: Miglin, Veronica
Subject: RE: Pizza Phriday

LMAO. Yes!



From: Miglin, Veronica
To: Katelyn Sullivan
Subject: RE: Pizza Phriday

Say it out loud to get the full effect.

It’s supposed to be Pacific Northwesters

But I added a thing there



From: Katelyn Sullivan
To: Miglin, Veronica
Subject: RE: Pizza Phriday




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